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↑ Study. Uni. Choice @Saturday, March 2, 201310:29 PM

I dont know why this is happening on me again. Godddd,wannn yeeee ahhhh???? How many times are you going to torture me till it stops? Sigh. But I dont blame you,I will be a better girl because of that. They said,when its not yours,then its not,dont hope or take it from others. God will give you what you deserve,eventually. Just hang on and wait :) I choose to believe the positive side,cuz that makes my life easier. There's no looking back for us. No matter what is on my way,I will go through it! I know you want to challenge me,but I will never give up! Currently still sitting at home,doing nothing -.- for like 3 4months,I'm boreddddd. Anyway,my course will start on 25 March! And my friends were all shocked when I told them I'm going to Architecture now. How about my doctor dream? Yes,I gave it up. I got my results,and its super bad,I dont even have time to be sad cuz I have to decide what I want right away. It took 3 days for me to decide this. Some asked me to take foundation,start over again. But I really feel tired for that life,that studying everyday,and even after I work,I still have to be on call 24hours. Im not sure if I want this not-so-called-life. So I talked to my sis,my mum and him. They told me,if you really want,then just go for it,but then you have to be really sure,this is your life. And then I know,this is not my future,I cant even handle A levels,what about medicine,its 10times harder than what I did. I choose Architecture,its a combination of Science and Arts. I can still remember one of my junior told me,I have this designer look,LOL. She's pretty right. I will be an Architect :/ Dont even think it will be easy,it will still take 5 years and 3 board exams to become a real Architect. Not to mention the internship years. Roughly 7 years to own the tittle Ar. /.\ Yes,still no life! LOL. Im so excited for my uni life,seriously. It will be a whole new life for me. All alone again. Hopefully I can meet new friends there,and meet my bunnies someday,really miss them!

I hope he will be happy for me too. Even we are not talking now,but it doesnt mean we dont care about each other. Knew you for almost 6 years,I know you still care,you will always care. xoxo.

↑ To buy! @Friday, January 4, 20135:29 PM

They say,when you are broke,you have many things to buy,but when you have money,you dont feel like buying anything at all. HUMAN! Last year,I made a to buy list,ended up I just got few of it. How about this year? I will make a new to buy list,and check it on the end of the year,see if I got them all xD

Okay,first,I want a new phone! My dad bought me a Rm50 phone so that I can use it temporary,and I'm so happy that I can finally be a smartphone user *touched* Promise that I will take care of it so well when I get it. But then the stupid Digi,can you replenish the stock already?!

This will be my new phone! First gift on 2013,thanks Daddy !

I admit that I'm a spoiled kid,coz whatever I want,my dad will get it for me,even we are not so rich. But I planned to buy this watch with my own savings,or maybe with the CNY angpaos. Or I will get some part time jobs,so that I can fulfil my wish faster! Aint it pretty? =')

This is the thing I want for so long but never buy it successfully =..= It's been on my list for 2 years,what the hell. If I don't buy so much clothes,I guess I'm wearing it now already. I'm sorry,I wish I can take you home this year,hopefully =/

The last one,Instax Mini 8! So adorable and colourful! People who knew me should know that I will definitely buy the blue one. Its my favourite colour and its Stitch colour =P Always want a camera,so that it can save me some memories. This is the best choice!

Lastly,Chloe perfume!

Why I love this? Because it's the same with my name! Sis got it when she went to Sweden but she didnt buy for me :( Now that I have to save money and buy myself.

WHERE TO GET SO MUCH MONEY HELLOOOO?!

If only I'm a millionaire,all these things will never be a problem for me.

Unfortunately,I'm not.

So,I'm going to save as many money as I can,to get all these by using my savings! Or maybe SOMEONE can buy it for me,as a birthday present . hahahaha. You know what to do on 7th May ,okay? I dont need to remind you again,right? *just kidding*

That's all for today,toddles!

↑ 2013. Question mark? @Tuesday, January 1, 20134:11 AM

First of all,Happy New Year guys! Its 2013 now! Yeehaaa!!
Too bad that I have no where to go this year and I countdown in my room just now.
So 2012 has come to an end,what's your best memory after all ? I have many but I'm not telling you,will keep it in my heart :P
Just a little sharing about my feelings today as I have so many questions nowadays.
I found my love and I'm happy but sometimes,the bad feeling just comes to me,and erodes me slowly. I can do nothing but watch myself falls again and again. Can someone please tell me,what is LOVE? I thought I know it so well but looks like I am not. I'm slowly drifted from who I am,helpless. Do I have to care so much or not? Even if I care,what can I do? At last,things just fade,and it just happens! So,who is going to be responsible for that? Me? You? Or just no one? I dont love to torture myself by thinking so much,I tried to remind myself everyday who I am. But at last,the devil just defeats me,or even kills me. Is it because I love too much? I know how it feels to be doubted by your love ones,and I dont want to be the one. I really hope things will become better between us, I really hope its not this complicated,I really hope it's just between you and me,and not others. But,seriously,what can I do? Why do we have to care when its not your right to decide what to do? I love you,I really am. Even words cant describe,I know you are the same too. But does this means everything? Does LOVE really conquers all? I'm tired,but as long as I live,this question will follow me forever. I dont wanna care no more,I hope you see my efforts for you,I hope you feel what I feel. That's all I need.

It's supposed to be a good start but I just ruined mine.
Hope you guys are having fun :)

Do we have to pretend nothing even if it hurts?

↑ @Sunday, December 9, 20122:07 AM

一切都只是过眼云烟，何苦为难自己？
当你以为眼前的所有是你的全部，是你的快乐，总会有那么一个人很残忍地将它夺走。
你伤心，你痛哭，你想放弃了，它又不自觉地出现，你却不能潇洒地把它推走，因为你知道付出的收不回。只能让它慢慢侵蚀你的快乐，你的生活。你很懦弱，你什么都做不了。你只能让人摆布，像个傀儡。这一切到底是为了什么？所谓的幸福在哪里？很犯贱，很固执。
或许，有一天，你会懂，我相信你会。
你就像天气，阴晴不定。
想要猜测你的心声，没那么容易，可是我不想放弃。
因为没有什么可以阻止我想要做的事，就算你，也不可以。

突然很像把这些写出来。发泄了，就好了吧？
希望明天的你可以对我很好。

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↑ Study. Uni. Choice @Saturday, March 2, 201310:29 PM I dont know why this is happening on me again. Godddd,wannn yeeee ahhhh???? How many times are you going to torture me till it stops? Sigh. But I dont blame you,I will be a better girl because of that. They said,when its not yours,then its not,dont hope or take it from others. God will give you what you deserve,eventually. Just hang on and wait :) I choose to believe the positive side,cuz that makes my life easier. There's no looking back for us. No matter what is on my way,I will go through it! I know you want to challenge me,but I will never give up! Currently still sitting at home,doing nothing -.- for like 3 4months,I'm boreddddd. Anyway,my course will start on 25 March! And my friends were all shocked when I told them I'm going to Architecture now. How about my doctor dream? Yes,I gave it up. I got my results,and its super bad,I dont even have time to be sad cuz I have to decide what I want right away. It took 3 days for me to decide this. Some asked me to take foundation,start over again. But I really feel tired for that life,that studying everyday,and even after I work,I still have to be on call 24hours. Im not sure if I want this not-so-called-life. So I talked to my sis,my mum and him. They told me,if you really want,then just go for it,but then you have to be really sure,this is your life. And then I know,this is not my future,I cant even handle A levels,what about medicine,its 10times harder than what I did. I choose Architecture,its a combination of Science and Arts. I can still remember one of my junior told me,I have this designer look,LOL. She's pretty right. I will be an Architect :/ Dont even think it will be easy,it will still take 5 years and 3 board exams to become a real Architect. Not to mention the internship years. Roughly 7 years to own the tittle Ar. /.\ Yes,still no life! LOL. Im so excited for my uni life,seriously. It will be a whole new life for me. All alone again. Hopefully I can meet new friends there,and meet my bunnies someday,really miss them! I hope he will be happy for me too. Even we are not talking now,but it doesnt mean we dont care about each other. Knew you for almost 6 years,I know you still care,you will always care. xoxo. ↑ To buy! @Friday, January 4, 20135:29 PM They say,when you are broke,you have many things to buy,but when you have money,you dont feel like buying anything at all. HUMAN! Last year,I made a to buy list,ended up I just got few of it. How about this year? I will make a new to buy list,and check it on the end of the year,see if I got them all xD Okay,first,I want a new phone! My dad bought me a Rm50 phone so that I can use it temporary,and I'm so happy that I can finally be a smartphone user touched Promise that I will take care of it so well when I get it. But then the stupid Digi,can you replenish the stock already?! This will be my new phone! First gift on 2013,thanks Daddy ! I admit that I'm a spoiled kid,coz whatever I want,my dad will get it for me,even we are not so rich. But I planned to buy this watch with my own savings,or maybe with the CNY angpaos. Or I will get some part time jobs,so that I can fulfil my wish faster! Aint it pretty? =') This is the thing I want for so long but never buy it successfully =..= It's been on my list for 2 years,what the hell. If I don't buy so much clothes,I guess I'm wearing it now already. I'm sorry,I wish I can take you home this year,hopefully =/ The last one,Instax Mini 8! So adorable and colourful! People who knew me should know that I will definitely buy the blue one. Its my favourite colour and its Stitch colour =P Always want a camera,so that it can save me some memories. This is the best choice! Lastly,Chloe perfume! Why I love this? Because it's the same with my name! Sis got it when she went to Sweden but she didnt buy for me :( Now that I have to save money and buy myself. WHERE TO GET SO MUCH MONEY HELLOOOO?! If only I'm a millionaire,all these things will never be a problem for me. Unfortunately,I'm not. So,I'm going to save as many money as I can,to get all these by using my savings! Or maybe SOMEONE can buy it for me,as a birthday present . hahahaha. You know what to do on 7th May ,okay? I dont need to remind you again,right? just kidding That's all for today,toddles! ↑ 2013. Question mark? @Tuesday, January 1, 20134:11 AM First of all,Happy New Year guys! Its 2013 now! Yeehaaa!! Too bad that I have no where to go this year and I countdown in my room just now. So 2012 has come to an end,what's your best memory after all ? I have many but I'm not telling you,will keep it in my heart :P Just a little sharing about my feelings today as I have so many questions nowadays. I found my love and I'm happy but sometimes,the bad feeling just comes to me,and erodes me slowly. I can do nothing but watch myself falls again and again. Can someone please tell me,what is LOVE? I thought I know it so well but looks like I am not. I'm slowly drifted from who I am,helpless. Do I have to care so much or not? Even if I care,what can I do? At last,things just fade,and it just happens! So,who is going to be responsible for that? Me? You? Or just no one? I dont love to torture myself by thinking so much,I tried to remind myself everyday who I am. But at last,the devil just defeats me,or even kills me. Is it because I love too much? I know how it feels to be doubted by your love ones,and I dont want to be the one. I really hope things will become better between us, I really hope its not this complicated,I really hope it's just between you and me,and not others. But,seriously,what can I do? Why do we have to care when its not your right to decide what to do? I love you,I really am. Even words cant describe,I know you are the same too. But does this means everything? Does LOVE really conquers all? I'm tired,but as long as I live,this question will follow me forever. I dont wanna care no more,I hope you see my efforts for you,I hope you feel what I feel. That's all I need. It's supposed to be a good start but I just ruined mine. Hope you guys are having fun :) Do we have to pretend nothing even if it hurts? ↑ @Sunday, December 9, 20122:07 AM 一切都只是过眼云烟，何苦为难自己？当你以为眼前的所有是你的全部，是你的快乐，总会有那么一个人很残忍地将它夺走。你伤心，你痛哭，你想放弃了，它又不自觉地出现，你却不能潇洒地把它推走，因为你知道付出的收不回。只能让它慢慢侵蚀你的快乐，你的生活。你很懦弱，你什么都做不了。你只能让人摆布，像个傀儡。这一切到底是为了什么？所谓的幸福在哪里？很犯贱，很固执。或许，有一天，你会懂，我相信你会。你就像天气，阴晴不定。想要猜测你的心声，没那么容易，可是我不想放弃。因为没有什么可以阻止我想要做的事，就算你，也不可以。突然很像把这些写出来。发泄了，就好了吧？希望明天的你可以对我很好。 I live my Life. Music Playlist at MixPod.com
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